my blogging ends here. i am officially closing this blog. this will be my last post. thank you for bearing with all my

everything seems good, then suddenly, it's all gone.
they suddenly leave & everything will just be part of the past...

...to get used to everything he's doing~ it scares me that when one day it stops, I might feel pain when I shouldn't be. I don't know how to respond or if I'm giving the right response. ugh~ it's so hard to live by having expectations gone wrong. :(

I haven't felt this in a loooooooong time. what 'this' am I talking about? The feeling of someone calls for your attention all the time, wanting him to be part of your activities all the time, wanting to kill time with you--just everything with you more than anyone else. So you can't blame me if I'm mistaken about his acts.

Even though I still stick to what he clarifies all the time, "You sister, me brother", the people around me thinks he's being more than that. As much as I would like to believe that, I can't--I shouldn't. I definitely don't want to end up singing IU's 'Good day'.

In God's time, I know... in God's time...

i better stick to believing that & should constantly remind myself that not everyone who treats someone this nice, means they like that person--it can just be out of politeness or fondness, for the lack of term.

:|

so there's this new guy showing interest~ but im scared of him cuz he's already 28 & im just 23 AND he's Korean T_T ...

talking about clothing, I find it attractive when I see guys in white shoes, white tops & even just with using a leather bag.

whoa~flashbacks struck me from time to time during the entire trip. most of the things i see and do--everything just seemed to remind me of how things were back then with u. i shouldn't be smiling in this season of lent but even the bitter melon served during lunch brought a smile, remembering how my relatives forced u to eat thinking u hated vegetables just like they do. :P