i just realized how such a baby i am and how much precious time i have wasted & how insecure i am.
geez...

when will i grow up?

my mind's in a mess right now,
my thoughts unorganized,
my emotions all mixed up.

*sigh
a lot of things happened today.
first, we lost a friend because of dengue. she's a friend's cousin who we all considered as a friend we met online. she lives in cebu & it was really unfortunate that we never had the chance to hang out with her, to laugh with her & do a lot of fun crazy stuffs with her. im soo worried about my friend. they treat each other like sisters & not just cousins. she's in deep grief right now.

second, i received a job offer. the company i applied for last week cant afford to give me the salary amount i expect to receive & they're giving me a multitasking position with a basic salary that's waaay way lower than makati's minimum. decision making was tough. it took me a day to decide on. i said yes but it makes me sad cuz i don't think i deserve that pay for a multitasking job plus transportation costs a lot too. but still i said yes.i dunno if they would still take my yes cuz i sent my email after their office hours.

third, it's the first time i enjoyed imus plaza with the company of mia & my inaanak cayleb. we took loads of pictures & got friendly with the vendors. mia's really fun company!she's confident in everything & she's really very friendly. ^^

so there. i dunno what emotion should surface for today's happenings.
*sigh

physically...

mentally...

spiritually...

i am.

i feel such a loser

:(