i had a dream about him last night.first time after a long time!
him who?him who i met years ago. if you're someone i know, i know who you're thinking & no, he's not the same guy i have in mind for i have secretly told very few about him.we were never together but he meant special & i kinda felt that i was special for him too. ^^

looking back, it only makes me smile now unlike what i actually felt during those days with him around. i remember how exaggerated my heart would thump that it felt like i would get petrified seconds after! though i still get a little giddy (just a little ^^) encountering little things that connects or has something to do with him.

about my dream, he was wearing red, came over at my place, along with other friends of ours, to celebrate my birthday-- which in real life was just 5 days ago. He was there but we didn't have a conversation, didn't even get a greeting, a smile, not even a glance from him. no biggie!it's just a dream ^^.

it makes me think what's the reason why i liked him that much.hmm... was it because he's good looking?-no, i don't think he is.he's just popular to girls..LOL ^^..was it his sense of humor?-no, i don't think he has that..because he's a good student?-probably..i dunno..just his presence around me makes me happy during those days. but we were so immature back then.maybe that's why we were never together.

*sigh...i wish i can freely confess everything to you one day. i wish i can tell you how you made my heart feel so special and happy during those days. it's not that i'm hoping something out of it but wouldn't it be fun to have a good laugh at it?^^. well, i have moved on already.i have accepted defeat years ago.LOL^^ but hey!i'm still single!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
yes i'm single but i haven't gone desperate yet! LOL ^^

so here ends my mushiness. ulk!
had fun reading it?you'll never know, you might be "him"! what do you think? LOL ^^

but then again, nobody visits this blog!so he'll never get to read this!haha