Chapters Revealed

shutting the story book

2011-07-20T20:31:00.002+08:00

my blogging ends here. i am officially closing this blog. this will be my last post. thank you for bearing with all my

it's always been like this~

2011-07-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

everything seems good, then suddenly, it's all gone.
they suddenly leave & everything will just be part of the past...

so it scares me...

2011-07-03T00:38:00.003+08:00

...to get used to everything he's doing~ it scares me that when one day it stops, I might feel pain when I shouldn't be. I don't know how to respond or if I'm giving the right response. ugh~ it's so hard to live by having expectations gone wrong. :(

I haven't felt this in a loooooooong time. what 'this' am I talking about? The feeling of someone calls for your attention all the time, wanting him to be part of your activities all the time, wanting to kill time with you--just everything with you more than anyone else. So you can't blame me if I'm mistaken about his acts.

Even though I still stick to what he clarifies all the time, "You sister, me brother", the people around me thinks he's being more than that. As much as I would like to believe that, I can't--I shouldn't. I definitely don't want to end up singing IU's 'Good day'.

In God's time, I know... in God's time...

kuya

2011-06-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

i better stick to believing that & should constantly remind myself that not everyone who treats someone this nice, means they like that person--it can just be out of politeness or fondness, for the lack of term.

:|

hmmm~

2011-06-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

so there's this new guy showing interest~ but im scared of him cuz he's already 28 & im just 23 AND he's Korean T_T ...

I like k-pop, I have tons of crushes from different groups but I am really scared of real-life Koreans x_x

anyway, he said he's just a brother but what the heck, he keeps bugging me & even segued to asking me to have a cup of coffee w/ him nxt wk. He's starting to annoy me but let's just see. I told myself to not close doors & have faith that God won't let bad things to happen. I believe that the reason I'm still single right now is because God has someone that complements well with my personality. I know it cuz everyone I love right now--my family & friends, we all get along so well even with different personalities. So I'll let things go smoothly, as how God would let it happen.

Fate is having faith~ ^^

that ajussi

2011-05-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

talking about clothing, I find it attractive when I see guys in white shoes, white tops & even just with using a leather bag.

I'd like to compliment you for wearing a white top & styling your hair today, but I just can't--ajussi :P

just when i thought i never built memories with you

2011-04-24T23:14:00.003+08:00

whoa~flashbacks struck me from time to time during the entire trip. most of the things i see and do--everything just seemed to remind me of how things were back then with u. i shouldn't be smiling in this season of lent but even the bitter melon served during lunch brought a smile, remembering how my relatives forced u to eat thinking u hated vegetables just like they do. :P

*sigh

2011-03-18T21:29:00.001+08:00

it gets really depressing & frustrating at times

< / 3 why

hmmm

2011-01-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

im just sad...

i wanna write something long but all i can write is

im just sad...

really sad...

why aren't tears coming? but im just really sad... i sigh all day... &...

just sad...

너무 그리워

2010-12-04T22:15:00.002+08:00

그를 잊지 못해서 아파하나요 그대가 있을 자리가 여긴 아닌가요
나를 위한 거라면 참을 필요 없죠 언젠간 끝나버릴테니

내 사랑이 제자리로 오지 못하고 흘린 눈물 만큼 멀리 가네요
나는 잊어야 하죠 그대 너무 그리워 나를 아프게 할지는 몰라도 잊어요

바보 같은 나란 걸 그댄 아나요 가슴이 찢어지는데 웃음만 나오죠
언제까지라도 난 기다려 내 눈물 감추며 내게 돌아오긴 하는 건가요

잊어야 하는 건 지워야 하는 건
내겐 너무나 어려운 일이죠

내 마음이 제자리로 오질 않아요
미친 듯이 계속 눈물만 나죠
나는 안되나 봐요
그댈 잊는다는 건
그냥 죽고 싶어도 그대의 사랑 놓을 수 없어
나 살고 있죠

...

it was lovely, no wonder...

2010-08-14T23:58:00.001+08:00

waking up wishing those were real~

i remember leaning my head on your shoulder,

2010-08-08T21:16:00.001+08:00

unplanned.it just happened.

but it's just a memory now. *sigh

hah!

2010-07-19T23:28:00.001+08:00

dream on!

when?

2010-07-19T23:20:00.001+08:00

when will you initiate?

ambiguity

2010-07-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

clarify it or end it.

choose.

10:45

2010-06-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

i feel sleepy at around 9:30 pm

but most of the time, i only turn off my pc when it's 10:45.

that person should know why~

time is a big deal

2010-01-10T19:29:00.002+08:00

i was hyped up last night & this morning but why is it that every time i set aside time for some people, it always end up a time wasted?
*sigh
right now there's no one to talk to so i thank the existence of blogs.
i actually realized that you can actually make yourself happy & sad in a snap with your own wishful thoughts.

hey

2009-11-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

i wanna say hi
but
i
just

can't.

confused

2009-11-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

refused

hi ninang,mami & joni!

2009-11-19T22:08:00.001+08:00

so my blog officially has 3 readers. ^^
haha
salamat

whoa

2009-10-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

i just realized how such a baby i am and how much precious time i have wasted & how insecure i am.
geez...

when will i grow up?

preoccupied

2009-10-12T20:30:00.004+08:00

my mind's in a mess right now,
my thoughts unorganized,
my emotions all mixed up.

*sigh
a lot of things happened today.
first, we lost a friend because of dengue. she's a friend's cousin who we all considered as a friend we met online. she lives in cebu & it was really unfortunate that we never had the chance to hang out with her, to laugh with her & do a lot of fun crazy stuffs with her. im soo worried about my friend. they treat each other like sisters & not just cousins. she's in deep grief right now.

second, i received a job offer. the company i applied for last week cant afford to give me the salary amount i expect to receive & they're giving me a multitasking position with a basic salary that's waaay way lower than makati's minimum. decision making was tough. it took me a day to decide on. i said yes but it makes me sad cuz i don't think i deserve that pay for a multitasking job plus transportation costs a lot too. but still i said yes.i dunno if they would still take my yes cuz i sent my email after their office hours.

third, it's the first time i enjoyed imus plaza with the company of mia & my inaanak cayleb. we took loads of pictures & got friendly with the vendors. mia's really fun company!she's confident in everything & she's really very friendly. ^^

so there. i dunno what emotion should surface for today's happenings.
*sigh

weak

2009-10-05T23:45:00.001+08:00

physically...

mentally...

spiritually...

i am.

depressed much

2009-10-05T20:39:00.001+08:00

i feel such a loser

:(

relax...

2009-09-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

that's what i keep telling myself at the moment.

i applied for a part time home-based editorial abstracting job. even though it's for part time only, i still have to go through an english exam and get interviewed. it makes me nervous cuz ive never gone through exams when i applied in my past job, though i was very nervous during the interview.

so an exam- first time after a long time! i think it has been more than 2 years since i last took an exam, and that was still back in college. it makes me nervous being clueless on what will come out or what type the exam will be. if they would be asking about transforming this sentence to this type of sentence, oh geez i don't think i will make it. i mean i don't remember how you call types of sentences. are they gonna make me write an essay? will they give me enough time to finish it?

i try not to pressure myself that much by reading a friend's blog who writes english very well--his choice of words, sentence construction, the proper punctuation, the rules- he does everything well. i read them so that i'll be able to absorb his way of writing but his blog entries this past few days were full of negativity, rants, angst,depression and insecurities. so i stopped reading and started blogging here.

it has been three months since i resigned & i haven't been earning since then. i dunno why during these 3 months, it doesn't seem to bother me being at home and penniless. well, i admit it bothered me a little but still it didn't give me the drive to get back to working. i'm thinking there must be a problem with me.

i dunno but i seem to have a fear of conversing with people with higher ranking than me or to someone who i know i need to please. it's like it feels so annoying having the need to act and speak so formal, so nice/polite to them. it feels so awkward-i don't like feeling awkward. just knowing that i have to meet people for the first time bothers me already & makes me back out too if possible. it must be pride? or i get intimidated easily? argh! i know these people don't have the intentions my paranoid mind suggests. > . <

i also don't like when people here at home bug me or make a big deal out of my business-applying for a job more specifically. i mean i know you know it cuz you can see it but don't bug me about it cuz i will share it with you if i want too or if im already in the mood to announce it. am i such a private person? am i being too moody? it's just me! u think i'll be needing a psychologist to fix this character? aish...

but an incident i can't openly share woke me up from this funemployment(pun intended).

whether i get this part time job tomorrow or not, i will still send my resume for a full time job to this company i prospect.

hoping to have a good weather for a good mood tomorrow~
wish me a good sleep tonight and full of luck tomorrow!

Ondoy aka Tropical Typhoon Ketsana

2009-09-28T14:25:00.003+08:00

it's just so hard to go online seeing all the depressing state of every Filipinos drastically affected by the typhoon Ondoy. I just can't keep myself updated with all these depressing stories.

So i took time off to pray, which to tell you honestly is something i haven't done for a long time already. *sigh

PLEASE HELP THE PHILIPPINES.
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thank you very much.
God bless the Philippines

him

2009-09-19T23:54:00.007+08:00

i had a dream about him last night.first time after a long time!
him who?him who i met years ago. if you're someone i know, i know who you're thinking & no, he's not the same guy i have in mind for i have secretly told very few about him.we were never together but he meant special & i kinda felt that i was special for him too. ^^

looking back, it only makes me smile now unlike what i actually felt during those days with him around. i remember how exaggerated my heart would thump that it felt like i would get petrified seconds after! though i still get a little giddy (just a little ^^) encountering little things that connects or has something to do with him.

about my dream, he was wearing red, came over at my place, along with other friends of ours, to celebrate my birthday-- which in real life was just 5 days ago. He was there but we didn't have a conversation, didn't even get a greeting, a smile, not even a glance from him. no biggie!it's just a dream ^^.

it makes me think what's the reason why i liked him that much.hmm... was it because he's good looking?-no, i don't think he is.he's just popular to girls..LOL ^^..was it his sense of humor?-no, i don't think he has that..because he's a good student?-probably..i dunno..just his presence around me makes me happy during those days. but we were so immature back then.maybe that's why we were never together.

*sigh...i wish i can freely confess everything to you one day. i wish i can tell you how you made my heart feel so special and happy during those days. it's not that i'm hoping something out of it but wouldn't it be fun to have a good laugh at it?^^. well, i have moved on already.i have accepted defeat years ago.LOL^^ but hey!i'm still single!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
yes i'm single but i haven't gone desperate yet! LOL ^^

so here ends my mushiness. ulk!
had fun reading it?you'll never know, you might be "him"! what do you think? LOL ^^

but then again, nobody visits this blog!so he'll never get to read this!haha

보고 싶어서, 안고 싶어서, 만지고 싶어서…

2009-08-20T20:53:00.003+08:00

그 때 우리가 아주 조금만 어른스러웠더라면...
그 때 우리가 미쳐 몰랐던 지금을 알았더라면...

아냐!

고마워...
안녕...

ready?

2009-08-18T20:35:00.002+08:00

i think i'm ready...
ready to what?

to face tasks, the bosses,the clients, challenges, compliments, success & most especially to face failures...

deep inhale.....
warm exhale....

i'm trying my luck tomorrow....i just hope it(luck)clings to me tomorrow & for the rest of my life.
i'm being as positive as i can >.< , really,i'm trying...

fears

2009-08-09T22:37:00.003+08:00

ok,so where do i start?

pleasing people. yes, everybody knows that we can't please everybody. but with the career i choose to pursue, i know i need to please at least a larger amount of people & not just some people. a lot of friends & loved ones believe in my ability but for me, what they are so amazed are just too shallow & does not really deserve a wowing appreciation. i feel like they think/see that i know and can do a LOT but for me, i lack and need to learn a LOT. but, of course, i will never reject their words of encouragement, support and appreciation.

interaction.in the line of work i choose to pursue, meeting new people will always be possible to occur. i'm not good in starting a conversation, building it up, making it last-i'm just not into conversations!not of course if it's a friend i've known for so long. i get petrified just seeing someone about to come up and talk to me. i would definitely end up stuttering, lost for words-- i might just end up giving them the expression that i'm not educated at all!

fail. i guess everyone fears to fail. but my fear to fail falls on 1% cuz i know for a fact that everyone fails every now & then, cuz it's human nature!you'll never learn if you don't fail at one point in your life.

so those are my major fears. i guess the only way to overcome them is by facing them. >.<
geez, wish me luck

confidently posting my weaknesses here, eh? nah! nobody comes here and reads these anyway...

whatever

2009-08-09T19:54:00.003+08:00

tonight is non-stop blogging night!oh God, i think i'm in need of some serious help!i seem to have cared in every problem in the world! >.<

so this is bum-life

2009-08-09T18:39:00.002+08:00

so i know this day would come...wazzup with today?

i suddenly woke up at around 3:30 am today, with a rush of thoughts running through my head. it's almost 2 months since i chose to be a bum. 2 months had passed with me blogging, surfing the net, watching & updating myself with kpop. but thinking of it now, how does that kind of lifestyle help me to become a better person? to be a productive citizen of this country? does it do something to help me survive in the future? now it bothers me.

if i would put in detail of what happened in the 2 months of my bumness: waking up late,eat brunch,check the kpop forums,check tumblr,post at twitter,post at tumblr,take a bath,watch whatever kpop,download kpop,check korean sites on nail art & just enjoy their blog posts,tumblr,twitter,chat,sleep at around 10pm. being a mouse potato-that's what exactly bums do. my 2 months revolve on kpop and just kpop.

when i resigned, i promised myself that i would never utter the phrase "it's so boring/i'm bored" cuz i said to myself that i would do every preparation needed for me to get hired & be an effective employee in my next job. i even gave myself a timeline when to stop relaxing,to practice adobe indesign,adobe flash,a deadline for me to finish my portfolio, to complete my resume & cover letters. i was getting ready, even my friends gave me companies where to apply. but luck seemed to have left my side.

a series of unfortunate events occured. my pc used to have 2 hard drives, both divided into two so it looked like i had 4 hard drives. i was confident my files are safe in both drives but i still burned back-ups,part by part everyday. then one day, one of it crashed. my files for portfolio were in that drive, my hires ilocos trips were there, & a lot more memorable photos were still in that drive. i had it taken to the technician hoping he would get to recover my files but he said it's hopeless since it has crashed and is completely broken. since that day, i never finished my portfolio.i've got all my plans delayed.

just two weeks before the deadline i gave myself in completing all the requirements needed to apply for a job, i got sick. i would suddenly have high fever but it's not flu cuz i didn't have cough & colds. that time, it took me almost 3 days without getting checked by the doctor thinking it was just some fever & also, we were broke then. i know how painful it is for my mom to see me in pain, complaining every now & then. she whisperd to me one time saying, "i'm sorry anak, ndi kita mapa-check up,wala pa tayong pera", apologizing that she can't take me to see a doctor cuz we're broke. it is much painful for me too cuz i know i'm of no help to them cuz i'm jobless & now i serve as a burden for getting sick.

the day came that i was taken to the nearest clinic to get checked. i was diagnosed with Urinary Tract Infection. Finally, i would get better with the antibiotics i would take. but for a week, i would still get high fever at night plus, i got overdosed with the antibiotics. The doctor advised me to take 200mg, twice a day. the pharmacist gave us 400mg without letting us know that 200mg was unavailable that time & i'm not used into reading details on blister packs of pills. i took thrice one time which totalled to 1200mg in a day!it caused me severe headache for three days!it was more painful than a migrane!it made me feel nauseaus with just a minimal move.

but i'm all better now. going back online, finding out that all the companies i was to apply for closed already. i attempted doing freelance but then gave up cuz i always end up doing it for free plus my pc system is too weak now for graphics. i'm penny less, jobless & hopeless. i would like to meet up with my friends i haven't seen for years but then again, i'm pennyless, jobless & hopeless. *sigh...

is this self-pity?i tried living the life of an optimist, like my friend louh, who i've never seen doing some self-pity, never had rants, just always smiley & happy & seems to always be happy & thankful of everything around him. me, i always end up ranting,blaming myself, doing self-pity & blogging. maybe this is why blogging is very effective for me.

today, is the day i realized i should be bothered of how i'm becoming as each day passes. all my dreams when i was studying are coming back & i'm not doing anything to pursue them. my dream back then, was to finish my studies, get a job,earn big, earn enough to support my family, so that i can tell my dad to retire, go home,stay in the country with us. such a big dream eh? & with what i'm doing now,i'm not even starting to turn them into reality. i'm really hopeless...

i would want to quit this lifestyle as soon as possible, it's so frustrating...

Goodbye Tita Cory

2009-08-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

i wore yellow today. how i wish i was there to see and pay my last respects to her cortege.
Ex President Corazon “Cory” Cojuangco Aquino, thank you for fighting for democracy, thank you for inspiring each and every Filipino to continue to fight for our rights, to fear nothing as long as we go through it together as one. I never cared for any political figures but with you,i felt most of your sincerity,courage,passion,love for the people,love for this country and not the greediness for power of being the leader. You make me even prouder to be a Filipino. L sign is for “Laban”, “fight”. we’ll continue the fight!

Rest in Peace Tita Cory. Salamat at Paalam.

RIP Tita Cory

2009-08-04T23:02:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is Ex President Cory Aquino's burial...
salamat at paalam...

is back!

2009-08-04T22:59:00.002+08:00

sorry, this is the simplest yet neatest layout i got from blogskins.com
anyway,i'm back at blogspot! & not so sure if friends' links on the side are still active...

really

2009-06-24T15:57:00.001+08:00

i'd like to revamp this blog, but gah... i have tumblr now.
i'm too lazy to manage more than one blog these days. >.<
we'll see what's gonna happen in the next days...

uhmm

2009-03-25T06:49:00.000+08:00

i shall pursue photography,,
san kaya?,, hmm,,

immaturity

2009-01-07T23:05:00.002+08:00

i dunno if i should blog about him,,,

but i regret being so immature back then...

*sigh

omona!

2009-01-06T00:13:00.001+08:00

i think my heart's beating fast again....

otoke ^^

-edit-
or so i thought...
*sigh

T^T nasira animo sim ko

2008-09-07T12:19:00.000+08:00

i tried activating my mms & gprs services this morning.
then this afternoon,my sim collapses.

as in kahit saang CP ko cia iinsert,5 secs lang ciang nagoopen then,sim card not ready daw tapos dead na.

T^T

URGENT HIRING of ACCOUNTS EXECUTIVE

2008-08-26T17:04:00.000+08:00

Toolbox Creatives Designs Inc. is urgently needing 2 Accounts Executives
-must be a graduate of any Communication and/or Business related course

if you're interested, just e-mail your resume at:

toolboxcreatives@gmail.com

gusto mo maging SEXY??

2008-08-20T09:01:00.000+08:00

the WEIGHT is OVER...
Finally GUILT-FREE!

you should start drinking tropical fruit flavored SLIMFIT juice while eating asparagus & cinnamon flavored RICE&OATS snack

Beetlejuice!x3

2008-07-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

minsan,kahit wala kang dahilan na malungkot,eh kailangan mo din malungkot para mapatunayan na normal ka at tao ka na nakakaramdam ng sandamakmak sa emosyon...

ang point..
wala.

lately,bigla na lang ako nalulungkot na tipong gusto kong isigaw ang Beetlejuice ng tatlong beses kahit alam kong ndi related,wala lng gusto ko lng

kahapon sa jeep,umuulan ng point of view tungkol sa estado ng ekonomiya ng Pilipinas na tipong gusto ko ng gamitin ang speaker ng computer bilang earphones ko. Ndi kinaya ng powers ng earphones ko ang megaphones nila ate,kuya,manong,manang at cyempre ni manong driver. lahat daw kc nagtataasan(actually pati nga mga boses nila -_-): pamasahe,bilihin,kuryente,diesel pero ang sweldo daw ndi. May sarili din akong point of view na naging isang malaking tandang pananong na lumulutang sa ibabaw ng aking ulo na di katagalan ay sumabog sandaang piraso sa sobrang dami nilang sinasabi.

tapos kanina nmn sa jeep, may mga froshie na highschool klasmeyts,super hyper excited at nagkita ulit sila makalipas ang ilang buwan.ayun,kanya-kanyang kwento ng collge lyf adjustments nila,sila nagsisimula plng,kami tapos na,may mga bum at may mga nagtatrabaho na,nakaramdam ako ng,,,,,,,,mali!ndi ko naramdaman ang pagkatanda noh,eh mukha nga lng kaming magkaka-edad ^^...nakaramdam ako ng matinding pagka-miss sa aking mga ka-ekswela sa kolehiyo,,T_T lalo na c Gerley,kasi naman,nag-testi cia sakin kailan lng,, ayun,maalala ko lng cia,buong com41 naaalala ko na,,

at lately puro transportation experiences ang blog post ko

pero ang point talaga nito,,
malungkot ako kc
1.ndi ako makakapagpalit ng layout
2.ndi ako makapag photo shoot
3.ndi ako makapag browse ng matagal sa net
DAHIL
1.may work ako bukas
2.de-throned ako sa PC,may bago ng naka-upo T______T
3.forever busy ako sa trabaho

wala nkong outlet,i mean wala nkong malabasan ng emosyon other than this

july 18 ngaun,ndi nagunaw ang Pilipinas noh!ulol ung mga naniwala!
inuunahan nio pa si Papa God,

birthday ni Taemin ngaun saengil chuka haeyo

at kailangan natin ng ENErgy!
sabayan natin c MightyMouth
"noh nu naui ENergy!"

anybody there?echo echo echoooo

2008-07-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

ndi ako makatulog T_T
insomniac mode,,
kc nmn ung body clock ko sabi walang work pag sabado,,
guess what?
what?
may work ako bukas!
what!
well, no big deal,,at least mapapadpad ako sa labas ng kabite ngaung weekend,,
the thing is: makatulog kaya ako?magising kaya ako on time?
well, well, well,
as in
balon, balon, balon,
CORNY
lol.
wala lng..
T_T
ma-try na nga lng ung meebo(dawndie:"amazing!")

gusto kong...

2008-07-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

i-meet ung friends ko(tambay 24/7)
pumuntang school:chika with prof,ayusin ang clearance,sumakay sa ikot-jeep
mag-unwind...unwind?...unwind!,,,undwind?
pumuntang st.francis square
gumamit ng cs3 o cs2 man lng
at least fh11,pls
magpuntang museum at sumagap ng artistic inspiration
mag OL business with pinsan
mag-ice cream(happy flavors)
mag-photo shoot anywhere
mag-side line pag weekends:product shoot (offer nmn jan,please)

oh no,not my sight

2008-06-16T18:21:00.000+08:00

oh my,,i slept with the eye mask on,,
when i woke up,my sight is so blurry,,i have to stare to see everything clear,,
what went wrong?
oh no,,not my sight,,i need it to make a living!!
pls pray that everything wi;; be back to normal when i wake up tomorrow ..or else i might hurt myself going to work,,& i might lose a job, not just my job but my life...
huhuhuhuhuhuh

check out "ROCK THE FLAG 2008" photo album

2008-05-31T18:27:00.000+08:00

i have uploaded 160 chosen images out of 500+ photos taken
click below to visit the album site.

ROCK THE FLAG 2008 PHOTO ALBUM LINK

tnx for viewing!

photo portfolio

2008-05-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

i have finally decided to upload the photos i took at my DEVIANTART account
i realized that it can serve as my online photo portfolio
but i haven't uploaded all of the photos i choose to include in my photo portfolio.
i have there chicosci pix, starbucks pix,puerto galera pix, zte scandal rally, my cat's pic ^_^ and many more.go check it out,if u have time

visit it here: LABYRINTH-014

tnx!

CEREALICIOUS

2008-05-24T19:06:00.000+08:00

pirates of the CADBURY-EAN
NERD of the rings
about A-HOY
juMANGO
NUTTING hill

are very addicting!!
yum!yum!yum!x10 to the 10th power!

visit Robinsons Place Manila (3/F midtown wing)
Alabang Town Center (cinema level)
and in some universities

bumibisita,,,

2008-05-12T18:04:00.000+08:00

it's the sixth day
measels hit me
just can't help going online

hey,post

2008-05-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

tell me,
what frustrates u lately?
what are the things ur anxious of?
define art.ur own definition.
what are the things that excites u lately?
recently,which color do u hate the most?the color u love the most?
recently,which word u hate hearing the most
if u were to give me something what would it be?
if i were to give u something, what do u think would it be?

pressure,frustrations,pessimism

2008-04-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling the pressure from they say
i'm getting frustrated
i'm lacking self-esteem
i'm loosing perseverance
i got easily intimidated
i feel like i'm not good at anything at all
i'm getting more and more pessimist
and it's getting serious that i don't get to sleep at night
it's easy to say "whatever happens, face it!you can do it!"
it's easy to think "i don't fear rejection"
but i don't like seeing disappointment from people's faces
who says i'm relaxing?
no i'm not
i'm pressured.
i feel pressured
by the people
and by my own thoughts,,,

gimme good news

2008-04-22T16:40:00.000+08:00

ganito kc un,binilhan ko ng bagong headphones ang kagalang-galang kong MP4 player.
leech,
ndi nia ako ginalang.
nasira nmn ung port at ayaw niyan mag-charge.
ano ba.
lahat nlng ba bad news?bumabagsak n nga ekonomiya,bulsa at dignidad ng pilipinas pati b nmn ung mp4 ko babagsak n din?huhu
actually.
nonsense.
walang kinalaman.
pissed off lang tlaga.
sshheeesshh.

regretful or not?

2008-04-12T23:03:00.002+08:00

salamat poh, d p rin kta naka2limutan & d kta kailanman ka2limutan kht nsan man ako... :-)

he said...

puerto galera on Monday

2008-04-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

cno gusto sumama?pupunta kami nila Shai at lutch sa puerto galera on Monday.3 days 2 nights.samahan nio naman kami,, pm me ^_-

kamusta ka Pilipinas?

2008-04-11T20:25:00.000+08:00

shortage ng bigas?=pagtaas ng presyo
shortage ng harina?=pagtaas ng presyo
pagtaas ng presyo ng karne
pagtaas ng presyo ng processed food tulad ng hotdog at tocino
pagtaas ng presyo ng delata
mag half rice daw
bawasan daw ang pagkain ng tinapay
eh ang daming ngang Pilipinong wala ng kinakain ngayon pababawasan pa?
bagsak na din sa English proficiency
eh ang Filipino proficiency?
alam mo pa ba yung "TUPA"?
eh yung "MATSING"?
lahat na nawawala sa Pilipinas.dahil yan sa ka-tulyahan.(gets?)

eh ang ZTE issue kamusta?

song for today,,,

2008-04-09T17:17:00.002+08:00

quote

2008-04-07T23:41:00.002+08:00

don't give her too much time to miss you.
you're just giving her the chance to forget you.

delayed

2008-04-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

late ako mag-react.haha

kasi,,nung isang gabi lang nag-sink in sa akin na graduate na kami.
na-miss ko bigla ung block mates ko,AB COM 41. sayang kasi ndi natuloy ung bonding/post-graduation party namin for some reasons.

finally,it has gotten into me that we will never be gathered completely in any JFH room,on our uniforms, chaoticly trying to fill the air with our noise, with Gerley calling everyone's attention at the top of her lungs, and with Imple's "Hoy! Mga klasmeyts!..." *sigh

super late ung drama mode ko,, akala ko kasi magkikita pa kami sa May 14 or 15.usual date ng enrollment, usual date na ginugulo namin buhay ni Ate Noi. hehe,,

pinaka-bonding ng COM 41 eh yung Reco nung 3rd yr, yung "DAMAYAN" theme. Ewan ko pero para sakin un ung pinaka-sincere mode ng AB COM 41.
Gusto ko pa rin sila maka-boding ng walang ibang iniisip kundi ang mag-enjoy sa mga oras ng bonding moments. Kaya lang, malaki ang chances na mahirap silang hagilapin dahil karamihan sa kanila ay nagwowork na,ndi tulad ko na magulo pa rin ang pag-iisip.
*sigh.

late din kasi ako nakigulo sa kanila.naalala ko dati, exposure trip namin, ginaya ako ni Gerley sa bus. Sabi niya, "Gagayahin ko si Seth, ganito siya oh"
.....
guess what she did?
she just stood still!
then she said: "Comatose!"
Ewan ko ba pero ndi ako naasar, natawa ako. I think that incident triggered my "bibbo" mode. tnx Gerl ^^

napanaginipan ko na nga c Imple at c Gerley at hanggang sa panaginip ko eh... naga-ANNOUNCE pa rin cla! haha

nakaka-miss din pala kayo noh,hehe ^_^v
txt nio ko ha. 09054538943.
asahan nio,,,,,,, ndi ako magrereply!hahahahaha.kc tamad ako mag-txt!hahahahahaha

at kung namimiss nio din ung mga moments ng AB COM 41, may matinding video ako!
click nio 'to: AB COM 41SIGE i-KEMBOT tutorial

ayos yan!
*sigh,, madami pa akong nami-miss n mga kalokohan,,
hehehe..

too tired

2008-03-26T20:18:00.002+08:00

and so it has ended.
he didn't stop her,
he didn't even ask why.
he accepted the situation.

until the very end,
it was still a guessing game.
everything went unclear,
everything seemed unsure.

the truth was then judged,
but no one really knows except her.
she got too tired,
too tired of what?

the wide absence of a certain feeling,
a whole lot feeling of emptiness.
the thought of feeling all these,
knowing the mere fact that she's not supposed to.

maybe he knows,
maybe she knows.
or maybe he doesn't
while she does.

maybe he thought she's happy about it,
that she's been wanting this to happen,
why it seems so easy for her
but can he ever tell?

she wasn't fed,
she wasn't nourished,
what made the situation come to an end?
she's tired,too tired...

she even waited for him to say,
"wait,let me make-up all the things/time i lack/missed"
too tired of feeling empty...
empty...it has ended.

©seth.26032008

aigoo!

2008-03-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

graduation na bukas!
nasa editing process pa ang thesis,maybe 'til summer nag-eedit prin kmi ng thesis,,
i've been living in my own world lately,,nope it's not what u think,,i'm not going independent.^^v i've been sitting in front of the PC lately and just watch k-pop,j-pop videos and films, checking out the story line,concepts and shots,,haha,what a boring thing to do eh?well, that's what i've been keeping myself busy. the moment i sit in front of the PC, no one can ever disturb me!haha!literally!its a scenario of "i-can't-hear-them,they-can't-see-me".
cyworld is also addicting!add me up!: http://us.cyworld.com/chonghee_seth
hahahahahahaha!i've been busy keeping the electricity bills up!hahaha!bad sethy.i shud start looking for a job, right?i haven't even finished my evaluation for CAD and still editing thesis.
well, just felt like posting...
*sigh

and for the COM41 peeps_kita-kits sa bonding kila Gie on march 27!umayos kau!mag-bonding tau ha!
may naisip akong topics:
a. mimic me
b. when i first saw __ she/he was like ___
c. when i see __ she/he reminds me of ___
let's video this activity,it would be super fun!then let's upload it at youtube!haha
tada! are u excited?i am super excited! c ya!

congrats to all the graduating peeps out there! ^_^

& oh!my biggest problem,i have to sleep early tonight becuz i have to wake up early tomorrow and i have to apply cosmetics on my own!oh my,guess everyone will be shocked tomorrow!haha.

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sad,,

2008-03-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

there was supposed to be an occasion, or so i thought.
there's been this plan in my mind, an act i can't execute for it will surely cause terrible effect
well, the song playing in the background will fully explain what i mean.
the song should be dedicated to me.
i intend not to show the title and not to post it's translation.
if ur that curious, u shud find the title of the song and it's translation.
the clue: super junior

if u have figured it out, message me..

that's it.
sigh,,,

pumutok yung gulong

2008-03-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

[4:05 am.kasalukuyang gumagawa ng narrative report para sa internship journal.suju music playing in the bg]

Pumutok yung gulong ng jeep na sinasakyan namin sa may Marina, dun sa tapat ng Chinese temple,kagabi around 8:30pm pauwi galing Solar Entertainment sa Makati to get our evaluation forms.

here's the catch:[skeptic?]i was closing my eyes while riding the jeepney, but not to sleep. gusto ko lang ipahinga. then i had this "premonition". Same jeep, same people then something negative happens, there's panic. What's exactly happening didn't seem clear during that time but what's clear is when i opened my eyes, i saw the panic that i saw seconds before, during the times my eyes were still closed. The right tire in front bursted. Good thing before that moment, the driver slowed down due to the other lane with cars driving out from Macapagal road and thanks to the shoulder with embedded mini humps, we're saved! the jeepney didn't spin but slowly and safely stopped.

The driver changed his tire and after only about 10min, we're back on the road, zooming to imus cavite! In a snap, i'm at Imus already. Haha,
ganun kagaling c manong! no wonder his tires reach the point of blasting.

nagalit tuloy ung mama ko kay ____ bakit daw kasi ang dami pang kailangan lakarin eh alam namang pag graduating lapitin sa disgrasya.

i don't think so.i'm very skeptic bout this.i think it's just coincidence.

ayun lang,back to narrative report writing na ako,nagluluto na ng breakfast tita ko ndi pa ako natutulog,dami ko p namang agenda bukas.,,tsk,,

wishing all the graduating students Luck and safety; God bless,

sexybabes <-- [bagong name ko nnmn,haha.sabi ng sis ni Gie]

ako nga nadapa!

2008-02-18T16:18:00.000+08:00

ako na yata ang pinakasulit na gumamit ng services ng school clinic!
haha
kaninang umaga,as in maagang-maaga,pag lampas sa guard, after 2 steps... whoops!
nadulas ung right foot ko, napaluhod ung left knee ko,,ouch!ayan, pa-side na dulas tapos may lalaking froshie yata na nakatayo dun sa gilid. he stared at me, then offered his hand.haha,i look so odd slipping for no reason and it was so embarassing! i thanked him and did not dare look at him,hiya ako eh,,haha,,actually, wala ng rubber ung shoe ko,,natanggal and becuz i'm too busy, i never had the chance to have it repaired.haha,,ayan,para tuloy akong bata, may sugat sa tuhod. ndi naman nabutas ung pants ko,,nagasgas lang.i went to the clinic and the nurse grinned the moment i said "nadapa po ako".she said "huh?saan?" it was funny she gave me mefenamic acid to kill the pain. ndi naman ako iiyak eh. haha. i luv feeling the "elementary-days-pain" ^^ na-miss ko eh,hehe,,i put it in my pocket and lost it. i didn't mean to,,

i've been availing the school clinic's services since my first year at DLSU-D. haha
1st yr-had a shot due to a 40degree fever, migrane, migrane, sinusitis, hyperacidity
2nd yr-leg muscle tension during the swimming class, hyperacidity
3rd yr-toe sprain cuz it got stuck in a hole along the hallway, hyperacidity.haha
4th yr-fainted while lining up to pay my tuition fee,foreign matter in the eye, and this!haha

sigh,,i seem like reminiscing,,i seem like graduating,, i really hope to graduate.
tomorrow is my/our judgement day. It's Professional Ethics FINALS day. You just don't know how sir RS grades his "graduating class". He's way way way different from other professors. It really is hard to graduate under his class.pls. pray that i will pass.

friday - is chico< s >ci day
saturday- is gawad kalinga/ssSMB/< s > album day!! weee
sunday - is S day.[star city] day ^^

i missed posting long entries here,
^^
< S >eth marks the spot

< S > marks the spot!

2008-02-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

sheesh!!
super excited to have one!!!
target:this week!
yay!

apathy

2008-01-29T06:50:00.000+08:00

i don't want sympathy
i want apathy
i want deafening silence
i didn't make it
so just shut up.
let's shut the world
the hell i care

i saw it coming

sabi ko nga

2008-01-27T14:27:00.000+08:00

ur taho is constipated that's why ur contaminated...
good thing he got memorized by her that's why he easily mesmerized her name...

ah...eh...
sabi ko nga

un yon eh

hypertension

2008-01-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

i just have to let this out...

lately,my blood pressure has been constantly increasing. am i too young to experience hypertension?NO. I don't think so! with these kinds of people and situations i encounter everyday of my life, who wouldn't have hypertension??

my patience is wearing thin every time i see the faces of these people! i'll never let you know who they are. they already know who they are.

my mind's been preoccupied these past two semesters. senior life in college has been the toughest year of my schooling. i bear more problems than happy thoughts. i've been ranting all this time.

it's not yet my time to meet Him up there

2008-01-19T14:40:00.000+08:00

this morning, a red motorcycle almost hit me.it's not my fault, it's his. he was beating the red light.

here's the story,
i was on my way to radyo natin for my ojt. when i got off the bus, i confidently crossed the street because the traffic light was on red and the pedestrian crossing light is on green. suddenly, this motorcycle popped out of nowhere! gladly he grabbed the handbrake tightly enough not to send me flying 4 meters away from him, then rolling with blood all over and ambulance sirens to fill the streets of roxas boulevard and to have only his head close to mine that his helmet kissed my face. guess what i did.,,i said sorry, haha, then he stared angrily at me as if it was my fault. err! then i ran and crossed the street before the traffic light turns green.
geez, after that incident, i felt,,,,,,sleepy!haha, just kidding,,

i am skeptic about fortune-tellers' predictions, horoscopes and all that stuff but with the start of the year, i read my yearly horoscope posted somewhere in the cyber world and it says there to stay away from red vehicles. what almost hit me is a red motorcycle,,maybe it's just a coincidence. ^_-

i realized na "masamang damo pala ako!" lol. xP just kidding...

i realized that it's not yet time for me to leave earth, it's still time for me to be good and do what i have to do,to still be with all of you, =p

dilang anghel!

2008-01-10T16:04:00.000+08:00

c mami[darlen shane basillaje,ehem,ehem] ay nagdilang anghel!!she really is angel datchie! she started everything!hinatak nia ako sa MBC then nagtuluytuloy na. Last night she said "bukas na bukas din, may OJT ka na" wow!!
She kept insisting the what-seems-a-cliche-to-me phrase "think positive".
YES!I'm being optimist!
today, i completed 8hours out of 200hours of duty. ^^

problems ko pa: thesis paper, thesis video, photo essay, ETHICS under sir RS 1 ^^
=p

Thank God for all these developments together with all those family and friends who gave me full support and inspiration!

TADA!!

wish me luck,LUCK and more LUCK.

suuuppeerr malas

2008-01-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

have u read Bob Ong's "Stainless Longganisa" and how he stretched Filipinos' power on using the word "super"? i'm applying the strong word super! suuupppeeerrr malas ako!!
last yr pa ako naghahanap ng mapago-ojt han hanggang ngayon wala pa rin!!malas talaga,lagi na lang nafufull pag ako n ung maga-apply. huhuhuhuhuhuhu,hindi pa yata ako makakagraduate dahil sa ojt na yan!leech,,huhuhuhu,,pag-ojt hin nio naman ako,,pls. feb18 ang deadline ko,, huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

lately, i noticed things don't go my way
suuupeer minamalas,,give me some luck and prayers,
geez

konti na lang

2008-01-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

konti na lang BEER BELLY na ako!
been into a lot of drinking sessions lately,haha
i don't really drink that much,,kasi ayoko magka-beer belly,haha
i don't really like too much of alcohol
but lately, there had been lots of reasons to drink,^_-v
enough,enough,enough
=p

back to the real world!

2008-01-01T12:22:00.000+08:00

vacation is over!bring those asses back to work!
move
move
move!
work it!

happy mickey year wala akong load!

2007-12-31T19:49:00.000+08:00

v^_^v
happy new year sa inyong lahaaaaaaaat!
wala akong load!
Good luck sa 2008 natin!

the oinky year that was

2007-12-30T18:18:00.000+08:00

my 2007,,
has been the busiest, most pressured, most occupied, most sleepless, most traveled, most nocturnal, most controversial, most of the most of my life!!

i met a lot of new friends, i encountered a lot of rush projects, i encountered lots of worries, i've been with the most annoying people in the world, the worst, the craziest professor on earth, the best professor on earth,
i learned a lot in the field of publication, in communication research, in controling mind over matter, in advertising, more on my crafty side,
i have experienced the poorest days of my life, crankiest days, never-ending ranting, most controvertial issues in the family, the best days with the best people, worsening memory lapses
i have recieved the greatest news from friends,the dream gadget, the greatest gift from a special someone, the greatest comments, the greatest criticisms,the greatest failure,

and after all, i still receive the same comments from different professors.u know it's me who made it when u read their comment that says: "please elaborate"

the laziest day

2007-12-30T17:56:00.000+08:00

this is one of the laziest day of my oinky year,,
everyone's been busy and i'm supposed to be busy too, but
i felt very LAZY today,,
all i did today is face the computer!
i edited pix,played online games,edited pix,played online games which i'm supposed to be working on writing and layouting 2 news articles and 2 feature articles, working on my photojourn journal, supposed to have e-mailed my photojourn reflection paper, shooting for my photojourn photo essay, making my devcom volunteerism reflection paper, devcom profile studies, studying ethics and THESIS.geesh,that's a LOT!
i felt so so so soooo lazy that i even took time reading the rabbit's 2008 horoscope. it's so negative that it made me feel lazier.
so i went back playing online games,,
[this season is the poorest yet satisfying holiday of my life,i hope next year will be better]

lately, i've been feeling uneasy.i've been waking up in the middle of my sleep with all these pressure and worries in my mind as i feel the fast approaching resume of classes.i really hope to graduate this year.i don't want to dissapoint those who are expecting, especially my parents and relatives.

i'm pressured, i feel the pressure,
my mind's pre-occupied.
waah
waah,
wish me luck this coming mickey year!more luck!
pray that my emotions don't eat up my abilities.ha-ha

heck!

2007-12-29T14:25:00.000+08:00

the year's almost over!

heck!
it only means one thing: deadlines are fast approaching!waaaaahhh!!!!!!
i looked at my notes this morning & whoa!i've got loads to do!haven't even started one and i dunno when,where & how to begin with.

sheesh,,
a never-ending list of new year's resolutions
i'm not hopeless,i believe

it just takes me weird conditionings before i start working seriously with my school related tasks,,

wish me luck in my studies this coming 2008

have a prosperous new year!i hope 2008 will make me optimistic,i dunno how that's gonna happen,,

so annoying

2007-12-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

he's so annoying!
i dunno if he's dense or simply in denial!

i wanna write down all the things he does & he doesn't that annoys me but, i think i'll just surely be waisting my time.

aarggh!! why? why are u like this??

why can't u see or feel or even appreciate what i'm doing for u???????????

i wanna believe that ur an xyy and that i'm an xxy.oh sheesh!

this is so annoying!

it's not a demand,is it?

2007-12-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

i don't want someone who would die for me,
here's the logic: he's dead, i'm not. now what?
i want someone who'll live for me, because of me,,

i don't want someone to sympathize when i'm feeling down
i want him to listen,,
then, do something to lift my spirits up

i don't want someone to do anything for me,
i want him to do anything for us

i want things done his way, not my way.

demand?

2007-12-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

i hate it when people keep on apologizing instead of avoiding doing the same mistake over and over again. tsk!
i need not to see or feel efforts
i just need to stop hearing or seeing apologies!
am i demanding too much?
i just want to make things better!
you'll see what i mean, if u start doing what u want, what u feel right, not what i want and not because i said so.
tsk!

seth is,,

2007-10-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

extra sad,,
is it time to give up?
*sigh

i'm dead serious

2007-10-17T18:41:00.000+08:00

give me time to unwind
i need a peaceful mind
i'm gonna go insane

hello

2007-10-14T17:12:00.000+08:00

i guess a lot of u are now on vacation.,,
well,when everybody else is out there having fun,
i'm here,draining out words and knowledge from my brain,
[it's bleeding already]
doing my thesis,
straightening crooked sentence constructions,
making my way to burning a website layout
and
conditioning.

buti na lang may Magnolia Strawberry Ice cream
da best reliever
pain reliever, stress reliever, brain reliever,temper reliever, cough reliever,cold reliever
at kung anu-ano pang reliever.
pwede ring seth reliever,,watchu tink?

anyway,
blog posting is part of conditioning,
i better go back to the leech world,,
oopss,, u thought i'm going to curse thesis again,,
nah,,i promised never to do that
ang thesis dapat minamahal,,
so that it'll love u in return,,
reciprocate

ha-ha

every Filipino Child deserves to be a Bright child,,[can't get over]

sethy

2007-10-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

She calls me baby, then she won’t call me
Says she adores me and then ignores me
(sethy, what’s the problem?)
She keeps her distance and sits on fences
Puts up resistance and builds defenses
(sethy, what’s the problem?)

You keep me hanging on the line
Every time you change your mind

First you say you won’t then you say you will
You keep me hanging on, but we're not moving on, we're standing still
Sethy, you've got me on my knees
Sethy, it’s killing me

She needs her own space, she's playing mind games
Ends up at my place saying that she's changed
(Sethy, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
You got me going out of my mind

First you say you won’t then you say you will
You keep me hanging on, but we're not moving on, we're standing still
Sethy, you've got me on my knees
Sethy, it’s killing me

(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
Sethy

First you say you won’t then you say you will
You keep me hanging on, but we're not moving on, we're standing still
Sethy, you've got me on my knees
Sethy, it’s killing me

First you say you won’t then you say you will
You keep me hanging on, but we're not moving on, we're standing still
Sethy, you've got me on my knees
Sethy, it’s killing me

It's killing me

Sethy

rest day

2007-10-07T14:46:00.000+08:00

i finally had a rest day,,
after 3 weeks of sleepless,heavy,stressful,eye-popping,vein-striking,dehydrating layouting,
here comes the rest day but then,,
next week's gonna be, ad campaign planning and thesis week.
guess what,
i'm pretty much excited about these last two mind-crashing projects,,
well, i swear not to curse thesis anymore
& i swear to do my best & finish these projects the most positive way!
^_^
let's be optimist,,
v^_^v

back

2007-10-05T19:29:00.000+08:00

after being gone for so long,,
first post:RANTS

how can people be so insensitive?
how can they be so irresponsible?

leech...

2007-09-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

blood sucking parasites
sobrang lalaki nila
pramis!
human size pare!
3:37 ng umaga
bad trip
gradpic mamaya
creative shot:baka leech nlng
protesta
karma
oo
tama
karma
tsk
bad trip talaga eh
ano ba
ndi naman kaya ng asin ang leech
kaya ng leech ang asin
leechessness =kahit hindi umulan dumadami
huh?
ano?
teka.,,,
omg nlng

recycle bin

2007-09-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

ok
eto na
na
na
naman
na naman,,
hell week,,errmm
actually hell sem kc nung prelim plng parang finals na sa sobrang daming ginagawa,,
puro major subjects b naman.,,
layout,research,thesis,tvc's,radio ads,ad launch,publication launch,ad campaign plan,video documentary, lesson plan,,sound mixing,pag hahanap ng ADVERTISERS para sa publication namin,, play at marami pang ibang paper works,, lahat 'to due in 3 weeks time or less,,,grabe,,
sasabayan pa ng INSANE na prof,,
leech!
ndi na makahinga utak ko sa pag-iisip plng kung pano isasalpak sa 24/7 ang lahat ng simpleng-simpleng tasks na 'to,,
ano ba
kaya lahat muna ng pakalat-kalat na rants at grievances dapat maisalpak sa recycle bin,,

ermm,,
a little help,,
for a graduating student like me,,
please,,
if you are interested to ADVERTISE in our publication,message me ASAP,,i'll send you more info about our publication and our ADVERTISING rates.,,

haggard maging estudyante,,
limited pa ang convincing powers,,

ah
basta
ewan

wat will u do if.,,

2007-09-21T14:01:00.000+08:00

ur Prof is close-minded/narrow-minded/self-centered/know-it-all---for short=INSANE!!!!
and ur graduation is at stake?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@.@

2007-08-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

uhmmm,,,

masarap ba matulog?

dare

2007-08-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

rants i dare not write
for people you dare not know
from tasksESESES you dare not have

too tiring

KRAGDOR krag.exe

2007-08-26T12:41:00.000+08:00

sh*t!
my PC and flash disk is infected with kragdor worm!!
i dunno how to remove it!
my anti-virus can't even detect it!!
T_T
help

i feel...

2007-08-25T08:49:00.000+08:00

weird
sick
from head to toe
literally,,
*sigh

PUBLISH!The EdMan Publication Expo!

2007-08-24T17:08:00.000+08:00

dahil cra ung digicam ko,wala akong sariling set of pix,,eh natatamad na ako irepost dito sa site ko so,, to view the pix visit

shai's multiply: http://yunashai.multiply.com/photos/album/11/HSILBUP

Lutchelle's multiply: http://sapphirelove.multiply.com/photos/album/19/Publish_The_Edman_Publication_Expo_D_

tnx tnx!

sheer

2007-08-22T17:20:00.000+08:00

damn

i lost in the war i declared

2007-07-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

ur there but i can't feel u
ur there but still i feel empty.,
u just don't know how darker it is here than there
how will u know?
ur just "there" but never "here"
...literaly & figuratively...
it pains me.,,

i've been leaving out clues of my emotions.,,
you never get to pick them all up.,,
i've been keeping a lot of it to myself.,,
for u not to get mocked or degraded.,,

don't know where this would take us
don't know where this would take me.,,,

it's easy to say "i give up"
but the black hole already ate me,,
i can't let go.,,of something that is already precious to me.,,
it will hurt me as much as it would do to u.,,,or worse to me.,,

i declared the war but at the end of the day,found myself raising the white flag
*sigh
i lost
will i ever win?
no.,,i don't think so.,,
i think i'll always be a loser..,,,

let's leave it be..,,

Shala.:.in God's will

huhuhuhu

2007-07-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

bakit ba kasi ndi na lang ako naging lalaki???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

T_T

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

shoot me!

i hate

2007-06-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

..."by chance" = effort please
..."busy" = how's 1 minute out of 24/7?
..."too" = really?

labo
>:p

raindrops by regina spektor

2007-06-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

you dont know and thats ok.
you might find me anyway.
dont you know that i belong
on an arm with you, baby.

in a town thats cold and gray,
we will have a sunny day.
dont you know that i belong
on an arm with you, baby baby.

i do not know.
where did it go ?
when it goes.
suddenly though everythings slow and
i miss you so.

around each corner theres a chance.
people searching glands to glands.
moving barriel fast like insect to fish when they're scared.
and they sing the same old song,
though its been so very long.
they sing raindrops falling on my head,
but that doesnt mean that i am dead

and i do not know.
where does it go ?
when it goes.
suddenly though, everythings slow and
i miss you so.

you dont know but thats ok,
you might find me anyway.
dont you know i belong on an arm with you, baby.

in a town thats cold and gray,
we will have a sunny day.
dont you know that i belong on your arm, baby baby baby baby.

moody

2007-06-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

i never thought that it would actually be possible to hate someone just by the seeing that person from afar or just by seeing that person's txt message or anything related to that person or simply just by the thought of that person sends shiver down your spine!!!
*sigh
been so moody this past few days.,,
when school started, it has even gotten worse
adding up are frustrations, desperations and yeah, my campaign for optimism seems to have moss and cobwebs around it.
*sigh
if you're feeling so negative, so down and empty and no one is cheering you up when there's supposed to be, how would you react?
*sigh